After one year seven months and one day my boyfriend dumped me. I feel so empty and lonely now. I really don't no what to do now. He was my first after all. I miss him so much. I'm so confused i don't understand why he left me, he said its cause we don't see each other in one year and 12 days (yes i counted every second) but this is only because he won't go with me cause i think its because he doesn't like being seen in PUBLIC with me or he simply doesn't like being seen with ME. I'm beginning to think that it was because he just got tired of me or he found another. He says hes just tired of just talking on the phone and its not working out but i cant really believe in what he says.I don't because i had a talk with his cousin and i found he is a bigger liar than i thought he told me than he lies a lot but i was so stupid to think he wouldnt lie to me. and after i heard what he had to say i started thinking i wasnt good enough after all and what hes looking for in a girl is really not me and he was descirbed so different from what i thought was him. But i dont hate him not one bit i blame myself for not trying hard enough.

I really need your help i feel horrible even a simple comment would make me feel better.Right now im listening to all the k-pop music i can find to help me stop crying. im also searching everything i can find about kyuhyun from super junior , his smile makes me feel happy.